Change is an inevitable part of life, and unfortunately, something that I have always had a hard time dealing with. I get settled into things and as much as I hate to say it, I guess I just like the routine (that sounds so boring, doesn't it?) I get into the swing of things and it feels comfortable. I like that feeling.
But the last few months, that feeling of comfort started to irritate me. I was discontent. I didn't enjoy my routine anymore. Ever been in that situation? On the one hand, you want to change because you know you're not as happy as you should be and you know you can do better but on the other hand you've had this same routine for well over a year and you like the comfort of it. You like knowing basically what each day is going to be like.
Let me back up a little bit.
I have had the same personal training job for about a year and a half now. Not a terribly long time, but I've only been out of school for about two years, so I've been there for the majority of my time in the "real world." When I first got offered this job I was thrilled! It was going to be perfect! I honestly could see myself staying there for many years and climbing the ladder into a higher position. I began as a personal trainer and also taught TRX classes a couple times a week. I loved it! I was building up a good amount of clients and I really felt like it was an excellent fit.
But then, ever so slowly, and really without even realizing it, things changed.
Funny how that happens, huh? One day you feel like you're on the right path and then the next day you wake up and think "wow, I'm really not living up to my full potential. What the heck am I doing?" I tried to turned a blind eye to these feelings and pretend like I was still happy and content like I had been for so long. Then, one night while mindlessly scrolling through Facebook I saw that quote that one of my friends had put as their status: "If you want something different, you must DO something different." For whatever reason, that hit me like a ton of bricks. I wasn't going to magically start loving where my life was going if I kept turning my head to my feelings of discontent. If I wanted something different in my life I had to make the change; no one is going to do it for me! Wow, talk about a wake up call.
So what did I do? I applied to grad school (and got accepted), found a new personal training job where I will actually be able to hold a conversation with someone about programming and why Bosu balls are useless, and put in my two weeks notice at the job I had once loved and thought I would have forever.
For someone that doesn't like change, that's a lot of change.
One of my biggest fears is not living up to my full potential. I would confidently say that I do very well for myself but I have specific goals in mind and while I do just fine supporting myself, I'll be disappointed if I do not reach those goals. It's very important to me to continuously grow as a personal trainer, coach, and just as a person in general. I felt that I was no longer growing and knew that it was time to change things and move on to something that would help me grow and better myself.
Change is a very scary thing for me. It always has been. I have a tough time transitioning into new things and I get scared that I'm going to make a wrong choice. But if you feel like you can do more then you have to make that change because if you're not happy and you stay where you are, isn't that kind of like failing? You may as well take a chance on something new, say a prayer, and hope for the best. At least then you can't say you didn't try. I have a lot of new, exciting opportunities coming my way and I've decided the journey will be a whole lot more enjoyable if I learn to embrace change rather tan fear it.
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